JANUARY
- Had the worst breakout in my entire life!
- Was commissioned by Hush Nail Lounge to shoot their products.
- Broke my first ever badminton racket. (Actually di ako, si Albert!)
- Came out to my little sister and she was cool with it. (Ahhhh the joy)
- Did a free prenup shoot to practice with my Godox AD200.
- Attended and documented my best friend's first photography exhibit at Ginhawa Art Cafe.
FEBRUARY
- Went to a dermatologist to seek for professional help. I was prescribed with a lot of topical creams and other acne remedies.
- First time seeing Ben&Ben live during FebFair2018.
- Went to the beach for Seryang's (international student from Laos taking english course from our office) Cultural Language Training Program travel.
- First time to lose a very dear friend.
MARCH
- Moved out of our house and lived independently in an apartment near my work place because of a family problem. Though the problem has somehow subsided, I still decided to continue being independent because sooner or later I plan to move outside of Los Baños already.
- Took the Civil Service Exam
APRIL
- First filming gig with Sir Chico for JJWC.
- My mom surprised me with a refrigerator! HAHAHA
- Did a batch of #PantonePortraits for the graduating class of CVM.
MAY
- First ever Pantone Portraits shoot in Manila.
- Went to PSHS Mindanao campus for RPBB.
- Found out that my height increased to 170.5 cm! (F*yeah bitches)
- Donated money to the UPLB GABAY from my #PantonePortraits fundraising photo project.
- Passed the CSE.
JUNE
- Facilitated my 3rd batch of Bridge Program.
- Went to LU with my squad.
- My face finally started to clear up again.
- Got burnt-out from a lot of shoots. June was the month I rested from photography.
JULY
- Went to Baguio high schools for RPBB.
- Discovered Kahit Saan's baby back ribs 😂
- Bridge Program ended.
- Finished reading The Girl On The Train. It was soooooooo... bad.
- Passion slowly coming back.
- Officially got rid of pimples! 🙏
AUGUST
- Was able to go back to my masters and also the gym but my enthusiasm for both was short lived.
- Was also able to shoot again after 2 months of resting.
- Shot and released my first ever photography vlog! Thanks to my team! (Hanggang ngayon naririnig ko parin yung intro ko na suepr cringe but oh well)
- Also had a fun fun vlog with Sarah Trivino about skincare and makeup but we really didn't know what we were talking about 😂
- Ate at Breakfast At Antonio's for Cece's birthday.
- Supported and watched a friend perform in Rak of Aegis.
- Finished reading Everyday by David Levithan. 10/10 Kris Aquino would recommend.
SEPTEMBER
- Celebrated my birthday on the 2nd and my mother's on the 15th. Happy quarter life to me! I also released a thank you vlog to all those who made my birthday special.
- Supported the UPWVT during the finals Game 1 against FEU (They won and we got featured on national television and had our own GIF HAHAHA sikat sila ihhh)
- Won a Samsung Galaxy S9 from BPI!!!!! Delayed for my birthday but I'll take it!
OCTOBER
- Started my own bujo (bullet journal)
- UPLB 100th Loyatly Day
- Sell old garments and some ukay
- Started watching B99
- First time to donate blood! Finally conquered my fear of needles and syringes!
- Paula got injured while we were playing badminton :( She's fine now :)
- Went to the House of Representatives for the first time and met Congressman Burdado.
- Was invited to talk about research presentations by UP OR.
- First time to shoot at Flat Rocks with Kishan!
NOVEMBER
- 4th anniversary ❤️
- First time to watch a basketball game (on TV lang) because of UPMBT. Iba pala talaga pag alma matter mo yung nananalo.
- Bought my dream lensssssss (Sony Zeiss 55mm f1.8)
- Was commissioned by my friend to shoot their company ID.
- First time to go to Taytay Tiangge.
- Burned something very important to me before.
- LRC Autumn/Fall photoshoot
DECEMBER
- Took an oral exam in Managerial Leadership and I did so bad :( I really need to develop my skills in public speaking.
- Sushi party with my family.
- Finished reading One Dark Throne by Kendare Blake
- Got reunited with close high school friends.
- LRC and OVCAA Christmas Party
- UP PhotoS' 15th Anniversary.
- Went to Tagaytay twice for the christmas getaway with the squad and christmas eve celebration with the fam.
- Got scammed by a seller from Shopee :(
- Lit birthday celebration by Debby Casim Sy (oo buo talaga HAHAHA)
- Rewatched the whole Harry Potter series with my sister.
- Moved in to a new apartment!
BIGGEST LESSON IN 2018:
The root cause of my pain is my cowardliness; my fears.
I realized that I have been wasting my time and energy on the wrong things when I could have just done what would really make me happy. I'm just forcing myself to do something to compensate for the lack of opportunities in the creative field, but considering that I live in a highly scientific community, it's not likely I would get any.
I know, and my friends tell me this every time, that the field I'm seeking to flourish in is in Manila. It's just a 2 hour drive from where I live, and yet I can't bring myself to leave Elbi. Maybe because I became so comfortable with my life in Elbi that I got so scared to experience the horrors of living in Manila? I mean comparing the two, Elbi has fresher air, more greens, less traffic, and cheaper food. I have my family and my close friends in Elbi while in Manila, it would be the total opposite. The only positive thing I could see is the opportunity I could get in the creative industry.
My fears have blinded me to see beyond the negative side of living in Manila. Even my fear to come out to my family hinders me to be genuinely happy. I didn't think about the new friends I could make, the new places I could explore, the new food that I could eat, the new culture that I could acquire, and the new life that I could live as an openly gay.
25 years is already a long time for me not to pursue what I want. I've been making the wrong choices until now because of my fears and I don't want to live a life like that anymore. I refuse to. Thankfully, my little victories this 2018 will help me overcome my fears in 2019 (back read my 2018 highlights). In 2019, I will fight my fears for myself; for my happiness. NO MORE EXCUSES.
If being happy means I need to go through a painful journey, then I'd gladly go through it.
I realized that I have been wasting my time and energy on the wrong things when I could have just done what would really make me happy. I'm just forcing myself to do something to compensate for the lack of opportunities in the creative field, but considering that I live in a highly scientific community, it's not likely I would get any.
I know, and my friends tell me this every time, that the field I'm seeking to flourish in is in Manila. It's just a 2 hour drive from where I live, and yet I can't bring myself to leave Elbi. Maybe because I became so comfortable with my life in Elbi that I got so scared to experience the horrors of living in Manila? I mean comparing the two, Elbi has fresher air, more greens, less traffic, and cheaper food. I have my family and my close friends in Elbi while in Manila, it would be the total opposite. The only positive thing I could see is the opportunity I could get in the creative industry.
My fears have blinded me to see beyond the negative side of living in Manila. Even my fear to come out to my family hinders me to be genuinely happy. I didn't think about the new friends I could make, the new places I could explore, the new food that I could eat, the new culture that I could acquire, and the new life that I could live as an openly gay.
25 years is already a long time for me not to pursue what I want. I've been making the wrong choices until now because of my fears and I don't want to live a life like that anymore. I refuse to. Thankfully, my little victories this 2018 will help me overcome my fears in 2019 (back read my 2018 highlights). In 2019, I will fight my fears for myself; for my happiness. NO MORE EXCUSES.
If being happy means I need to go through a painful journey, then I'd gladly go through it.
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